A devastated mum has described the "torture" of having to watch her 18-week-old baby die after it was born alive following an abortion.
Loran Denison, 27, from Blackburn, was pregnant with her fourth child when a test at 15 weeks revealed he had Edwards' syndrome, LancsLive reports.
Despite being very rare, most babies with Edwards' syndrome die before or shortly after being born, or at a young age.
Loran and partner Scott Watson, 35, made the agonising decision to have a medical abortion after being told he was unlikely to be born alive, she said.
She took a tablet and returned to hospital to be induced at 18 weeks and four days – but was astonished when her son was born breathing and alive.
And while the mum doesn't want to deter anyone from making the right choice for them, she said watching him die was "torture".
Loran, a stay-at-home mum, said: "I thought I had done the hard bit when I made the difficult decision to have an abortion, but now it feels 10 times worse.
"I just want other mums to know in case this happens to them. I had to watch his heartbeat getting slower and watch his life draining out of him.
"You just want to keep your children alive. It was like torture.
"None of the doctors thought he would be born alive.
"When my partner picked him up after he was born he said 'his heart is beating', and they said 'no way'."
She went on: "When I took the first tablet on the sixth they said it would stop the pregnancy, heartbeat, and everything, so we expected he wouldn’t be alive when he was born.
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"They didn’t check for a heartbeat before inducing labour, and I wish they had.
"I don’t have words for how awful it was."
Edwards Syndrome is a rare condition and most babies with it don’t live to full-term, or die a couple of hours after being born, because they have an extra chromosome, number 18, according to the NHS website.
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It says around 13 in 100 babies with Edwards Syndrome who are born alive go on to have their first birthday.
Edwards Syndrome can cause a mixture of symptoms, varying in different people, including learning difficulties, heart, respiratory, kidney, or gastrointestinal problems, the website says.
Loran said she was told Kiyo Bleu had "typical Edwards Syndrome".
But little Kiyo Bleu Watson was born alive on April 9 at 3.50pm, weighing 150g, to the shock of his parents, Loran and Scott Watson, 35, and doctors.
Though glad to have met him, Loran said it was agonising to wait ten hours watching their newborn son fade until he died on April 10 at 2.30am.
After he died little Kiyo bleu went home to be with Loran, Scott, who works as a labourer, and their other three children for four days.
The family spent time with him in a special cot with a cold mattress until he needed to go to a funeral parlour on April 14 to wait for his funeral.
"It was awful," she said.
"I can’t get my head around how he survived. I don’t even have a word for how horrible it feels.
"There is a person I’ve read about who has survived with Edwards Syndrome to 40.
"Kiyo Bleu was so strong now I wonder if he would have survived. His heartbeat was so strong you could feel it.
"If I had known he would be born alive I probably would have made a different decision.
"I thought I was doing the right thing but now I think I have done the wrong thing. He just looked so normal."
If you have been affected by this story, advice and support can be found at Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity). You can call them on 0808 164 3332 or email [email protected]
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